I can't believe I never finished blogging about my 90 day challenge. That goes to show just how crazy things have been. Like I said in the last post, i plataued with my weight loss and was doing good at least maintaining what weight loss I did have. I even lost a few more pounds. At that point I was just doing one shake for breakfast and loving it. I have never been much of a breakfast eater so shakes are perfect for me, although now I am enjoying eating the fruit and cream oatmeal. I have been feeling so much better.
Unfortunately the holidays are SOOO hard for me! I don't know why. Maybe just all the goodies laying around everywhere, and all the chips and dips and the snacky foods. Oh it is all so bad! So I ended up gaining back everything that I lost, so I am basically starting over again. Also among all of this, I ran out of my shake powder. I was getting it from my chiropractor who is a distributor, and we were getting a huge discount through a program through Mike's work and our insurance, so it wasn't costing me much at all. Well, the insurance decided they weren't going to pay for it anymore, so now I have to pay full cost, darn! It really is a great price for what you get, but I have been trying to pay down my credit card from before Christmas spending, so it has been a while since I have had any shake mix. I decided to use Carnation instant breakfast, which has been ok to at least have a shake for breakfast, but it only has about half or less of the nutrients that the Vi shake does. I have also noticed my energy levels are not what they were when I was drinking Vi.
So now that I am back up in my weight, my clothes aren't fitting well and I don't look all that great again. So my goal is to start getting my Vi shake again ASAP! As soon as the card is paid off, I will get my shake again and then stay out of debt!!! We are going to be out of debt minus our house, school loans and medical bills by the end of this year, we are very excited! Oh yeah, my hubby had two major surgeries between August and November last year too, that didn't help with my stress levels, which cause weight gain as well.
Life is just great though! Even though I can't look great, like I want to, right now, I am still happy with myself and my life! I am so overly blessed! The Lord knows exactly what I need and when I need it. I have struggled being the primary, especially with the class I had last year. It just got to the point where I couldn't handle the kids talking and being loud through the whole class. This year I am in the nursery, which is a lot of fun, and very laid back. Addie is in there with me, which is fun to be able to play with her and all the other little kids to. It also works with my stake calling. In November they called me to be on the stake girls camp committee. I am over certification which is pretty much all of camp. It's a huge job, but I have so many people to help me make it great!
We had our winter retreat last weekend, which was great. We have some really incredible young women to help and some amazing leaders that I am getting to know and love so much! I am supposed to be with the youth for some reason, I don't know what that reason is yet, but I know I have so much to offer them and teach them. My life hasn't always been easy, especially as a young woman. Not fitting in and not having many friends is hard for a yong woman. I hope that I can help teach the young women that there is more to life than high school and friends and popularity. I have stuggled with self worth since I was 9, which is too long for anyone to have to worry about that or struggle with it. I have started, just in the last 6-9 months, finally realizing that it's not about me! Yes, it is great to love yourself and be happy with who you are at this moment in time, but more than that, is coming to realize that my Heavenly Father is always there and is always ready and willing to listen and to help, and also learning that he loves me for me! Yes, my Heavenly Father loves me, and He also loves each one of you and knows you personally! When you know this, everything else seems to melt away and is replaced by self worth.
That's just my little testimony. I have always wanted to be a motivational speaker for the youth of the church. I know I have so much to offer them. Maybe it all just starts here with the youth of our stake. Then I need to work on not being so nervous when I speak in front of people. I am slowly overcoming this with having to speak with Mike in the wards throughout the stake with him on occasion. Anyway, I love life and hope that you all do as well, and hopefully you all see that when you talk to me or see me. Have a great day, may God guide you in all that you do!
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